Yesterday was so tough for me. Hormones were raging, and I could feel it from the moment I woke up. After dropping a child off to camp, attending a physical therapy appointment for myself, and trying to school shop with my oldest child, my car started smoking in the parking lot. The same car I have been feeding good money to this year for tires, tie rods, brakes, etc. So I almost cried then and there, thinking it was the transmission as there was reddish liquid dripping out the bottom. After filling it up with coolant, I managed to get it to a new service center. Fortunately, it ended up only being a loose radiator clamp. Yet I still had to hang out at home that afternoon and reschedule a child's doctor appointment because I didn't have my car.
I was also feeling depressed because the end of summer is near. I love summer, and we've been having such a good time. I was also feeling so overwhelmed thinking of all of the new students I will get this year, too.
To top it off, I've developed asthma, probably triggered by allergies related to nearby fires that have been lingering this summer. So I just feel like I'm falling apart. Yeah, and I turn 35 in a week.
The world wouldn't stand still just because I was screaming on the inside, so I continued on my day the best I could with dance lessons, kid feeding and caring, and driving. By the end of the night I just wanted to lock myself into my closet and cry. My significant other saved the night, though, insisted that I didn't need to lock myself in a closet and gave me a good back rub instead.
I woke up this morning feeling refreshed, and back to my old self, go figure. Amazing how different you can feel in the morning sometimes.
I'm still working on positive thinking to improve my outlook. I am excited to see my students again and get our room set up. I'm looking forward to fall goodies and fall activities with my kids. I have to have patience with my health, I am feeling better every day and taking good care of myself. And being 35 will be fine, I'm having a blast! (Well, most days!)
Mood swings, how fun!
August 23rd, 2011 at 06:33 pm
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August 24th, 2011 at 12:42 am 1314146570
Me, too - but rather old and lonely since my youngest is in First Grade all day - and I had an endless stretch of hours ahead of me. I cooked up a storm, and in the end wound up braking my garbage disposal - AND once I cleaned it all up, I had a blonde moment and forgot that the dishwasher drains through the same pipes which were broken - more clean up. To top it off, once the kids got home, they were all tired and cranky. The birthday one doesn't want to celebrate - and the dancer goes right from dance to volleyball practice. Tomorrow has GOT to better than today. Oh, and yeah ... DH pulled the "I told you so" and "if you'd only listen once in awhile" lines :P
August 24th, 2011 at 01:22 am 1314148965